Be Still My Heart

Okay, that might not be the best thing after all.  I don't want it to be still.  It's being still is kinda the problem.

More like "Get your act together, heart."

It's been skipping beats all day.  Doesn't race.  It just beats along nice and normal, then a pause, and it picks right back up as if nothing's happened.  It hasn't happened for quite a while, and it's not really a big deal.  Just feels weird and causes me to be more tired than usual.

So tonight, I am gonna try my hardest to go to bed early.  Like fall asleep before 2 am early, because that seems to be my newest thing -- barely sleeping.  But last night was partly because the night got away from me while talking to some people. Before I knew it, it was after 1 and I had done nothing to get things ready for today.  Ugh lol.

August 11, 1012

January 5, 2013

I saw these two pictures side by side last night and wanted to cry.  Alone, they both look great.  Together, you can tell something is up. I think I look sick in the second one, now that I've seen the two together. Yeah, I'm pale in both but my skin tone in the second is kinda grayish.  And then the dark circles under my eyes... the bones sticking out of me....

Blah.

Nothing like being faced with reality!